Episode 1

April 07, 2025

00:08:37

I Survived Genocide: This Is What I Didn't Survive—And You Won't Either

I Survived Genocide: This Is What I Didn't Survive—And You Won't Either
Exiled & Rising: Trauma Recovery & Somatic Healing
I Survived Genocide: This Is What I Didn't Survive—And You Won't Either

Apr 07 2025 | 00:08:37

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Show Notes

In this unfiltered, soul-witnessing episode of Exiled and Rising, Ana Mael reads directly from page 185 of her memoir The Trauma We Don’t Talk About. This is a reading and reflection—not from the past, but from the living, ongoing truth of what genocide does to the body, the nervous system, and the identity.

In a world where genocide is happening in real-time, and where survivors are still being erased in therapy rooms, courtrooms, and spiritual circles, Ana Mael offers a rare and urgent voice—as a licensed somatic trauma therapist, a war refugee, and a genocide survivor.

Her words come not from theory, but from the bones of lived experience.
From decades of witnessing the aftermath—in her own body, in her clients' stories, and in the nervous systems of those who were never fully seen.

And that’s what makes this episode so politically vital:

  • She is one of the only trauma professionals publicly naming genocide from both inside and outside the field.

  • She speaks not just of healing—but of truth, justice, and dignity as non-negotiable parts of trauma recovery.

  • She refuses to sanitize or spiritualize violence to make it more palatable for systems that benefit from silence.

In a time where:

  • Genocides are denied

  • Survivors are dismissed

  • Wellness spaces avoid politics

  • And therapy often demands forgiveness without accountability…

Ana does something radical.
She tells the truth.
She calls for justice.
She names what others are too afraid—or too removed—to touch.

This is not just a podcast.
This is testimony.
This is somatic resistance.
This is advocacy through the nervous system.
And it’s what makes Exiled and Rising one of the most politically and spiritually relevant trauma podcasts of our time.

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Core Themes and Lessons:

  • Surviving genocide is not the whole story. Ana survived three wars, like her parents and grandparents. Fifty-eight people survived—but what wasn’t survived was the genocide of the self: name, childhood, innocence, and humanity.

  • Resilience comes with a cost. The fear wired into bones doesn’t disappear. What looks like strength to others may feel like unlivable tension inside the body.

  • This isn’t a history lesson—it’s a nervous system reality. When your body has prepared itself to survive genocide, it does not unlearn that readiness easily. It carries that into daily life, decades later: into work, relationships, parenting, and even moments of stillness.

  • Identity trauma is cumulative, not just personal. If the genocide of your ethnicity, religion, and humanity is never acknowledged, your children will inherit the silence. Your grandchildren will inherit the somatic residue of shame and loss.

  • What we don’t say becomes our sickness. This episode opens a portal into truths we’re often told not to name. Truths that are “too much,” “too political,” or “not spiritual.” And yet, they live in the nervous system waiting to be heard.

 

Meet Your Host: Ana Mael
Ana Mael is a genocide and war survivor, somatic therapist, and founder of the Somatic Trauma Recovery Center. She has dedicated her work to helping survivors reclaim their identity, dignity, and self-trust.
She is the bestselling author of The Trauma We Don’t Talk About—a #1 book in over 10 categories, including Mental Health, Personal Testimonies, and Memoirs.

Ana Mael’s insights are unflinching, trauma-informed, and radically honest. Her podcast Exiled and Rising merges the depth of somatic trauma healing with fierce social justice—centered around the lived realities of marginalized, displaced, and silenced bodies. With a voice that is both compassionate and defiant, Ana dismantles spiritual bypassing, confronts systemic harm, and offers a grounded, body-based path to healing rooted in dignity, truth, and personal sovereignty.


Ana lives in Toronto, Canada, where she works directly with clients and educates mental health professionals and counsellors on displacement, exile, and war trauma recovery. She leads training programs, provides trauma-informed therapy, and conducts research to bridge the gap between somatic therapy and global crisis trauma care.

 

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Episode Transcript

[00:00:00] Speaker A: Today's episode comes straight from the pages of the book I wrote, the Trauma We Don't Talk About. If you're reading this book, if you're using this book as a resource, if you're a therapist or student, it's the page 185. So it's the first volume. Many people say I can't even imagine what it feels like to survive genocide. And I say don't, don't imagine. Instead, let this episode help you to absorb the reality of what it means to survive genocide, to be in it, what it means to live through it, and what it means to carry it long after the world thinks it's over. And this is going to happen in the next decade or decades, you're going to face horrible impact on the people because you're not talking about many things. We are not talking about direct impact on that one human being. You, me, that child, that mother, a, uh, brother communities. And this is not just about the past. It's happening now. It's happening in me. Decades after the genocide I survived. I'm a Serbian from Croatia, Unrecognized genocide. It's happening to many of my clients. Uh, so don't listen with your mind, just listen with your heart. This is not a history lesson. This might be your life right now, this might be your story too. And today I sit on the land of indigenous people in Canada. And even as I read this, I have all my indigenous people in mind, my clients unrecognized, uh, genocide as well. And if you want to read more of what you're not supposed to say out loud, what we don't post on social media, what rarely gets said in a therapist's offices or in our communities, you can find in the book the Trauma We Don't Talk About. The link is in the show notes. Here we go. Genocide. I survived genocide the same as my parents, the same as my grandparents. There is a, uh, lineage of genocide survivors inside of me. We all survived miraculously, 58 of family members survived on average. Each family member survived two to three wars in their lifetime. I wonder about the cost of this resiliency, about living a life with fear and terror instilled in my bones. To spend every day knowing there is a, uh, probability of another massacre that I, ah, will have to survive. Not quite the achievement I was hoping to unlock when I dreamt about life accomplishments and self realization goals. What I didn't survive is the genocide of my identity, the genocide of my name, the genocide of my ethnicity, the genocide of my religion, the genocide of the humanity within me. The genocide of my childhood, the genocide of my innocence, the genocide of my being. We didn't survive those genocides. Not the genocide of our human identity. No, we didn't survive that. And let's pause. Let's pause. You don't need to imagine, uh, just pause and absorb the reality of us who survived genocide and who did not survive genocide. [00:06:32] Speaker B: If this episode spoke to you, to your mind, to your existence, and if you feel these stories needs to continue being told and tools for trauma healing shared in this community, please support and donate. There is no studio, production team or polished edit. It is just me and the mission to support you on the path from exhaled to rising. You can donate at the link in the show notes. If you're ready to take Healing Journey deeper, join me in the private excellent Rising Premium membership. There we will go into deeper dives, unfiltered, um, discussion and extending conversation you won't hear anywhere else. You will get exclusive insight and advanced tools in somatic trauma healing shared in each episode with practical takeaways and summaries where you can take actionable steps for your healing or you can take them to your own trauma therapist. Subscribe to Exalt and Rising Premium, where survival turns into self mastery. Link is in the show notes and if you want to ask a question, share your story or your insight, I would love to hear from you. Leave a voice [email protected] link is just below. I am Anna Mael and I will meet you again in this space. There will together a move from trauma to resilience, from wound to resistance, from exile to rising. Until next time, stay well.

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